Map The Soul – freestyle :.

I can’t even talk when I’m drunk. I slur.

And Tablo can spit rhymes double time. Yezzur. (Ignore me and watch video plz.. KTHNXBAII)

Still Raining…

Korean class was rained out today. Rain, though refreshing sometimes, is turning out to be a real wet blanket.

I see the pictures in the papers everyday.. examine the news.. more landslides and floods. Why can’t I still believe it’s happening here?

It’s true though.. we haven’t seen this much rain since God knows when.

Rain, it brings me memories both good and bad, and some I’d rather forget. It’s kinda painful if you think about it too much. Make someone misty eyed and tearful, when there already is abundant water to go around.

It’s raining still?

Rage :.

I should invest in a Rock Band set for the Wii.. or a decent boxing bag and a pair of pink gloves. I’ve got a lot of unspent rage inside.. and I find myself getting furious over the miniscule things because I can’t get angry about the big things that are bugging me in life, and maybe the world would be a safer place if I got my anger out by banging my heart out on the drums on Rock Band, instead of taking it out on the road.

I found myself getting really steamed about a carfull of idiots who had parked on my bridge while waiting for someone’s CNY Open House earlier this afternoon. I honked the hell out of them and then proceeded to give them the ‘Christine, car from hell’ treatment. But then again, who told you to park on MY bridge and not move when you saw my car coming.

I’m kinda messed up right now. My brain is being bi-polar.. One moment I’m laughing over some hilarious video in the intarwebs, and the next second I’m sobbing because the issue that’s currently pressing me pops back in and sends me to tears.. and then I get angry because I can’t deal with it the way I want to. I want to drown my sorrows in all things illegal.. but I’m trying to be a better person now and not numbing myself when I should be dealing with things. It’s not easy I tell you.

I used to be a lush in the worst way. Waking up to the hair to the hair of the dog.. Now I’ve got a half empty bottle of Absolut Peach in my cupboard that I haven’t touched since my birthday week.

Would it be bad of me if I said that I am contemplating finishing that bottle right now in the worst way to put a damper on my sorrows. Maybe I should just throw away that bottle for the best. I made it to February already without the usual bad stuff.. But then again.. cutting someone right off at the source has a way of making people reprioritize their life after realising how heavily substance dependent they can be.

Maybe I should just invest in that Rock band kit after all.

The Darker The Night.. :.

… the brighter the stars will shine..

You can fly (No matter anyone says)
Higher (I won’t ever)
Then the birds in the sky (Give up on my dream)
You can fly (No matter anyone says)
Higher (I won’t ever)
Then the birds in the sky (Give up on my dream)
Fly (My Baby) No matter what the world says
Fly, fly, get em up high,
No matter what anyone says, go go
Fly (My Baby) Even if love leaves you behind
Fly, fly get em up high…
Fly, even if you’ve got nothing
You Can Fly, even if love abruptly leave you behind
You Can Fly, even when you’re suffocating from pain
You Can Fly You got to fly sky high!

No Easy Road to Freedom :.

The last few days spent fighting my parents have really tired me out. As expected, I knew that trying to get out of my current rut and trying to get my life together would be an uphill battle. I just didn’t expect how hard it would be with BOTH of my parents playing tag-team against me.

I may have lost the battle today.. but surely I will win the war.. I am not giving up another year of my hopes and dreams.. I am not delaying what I feel is an important part of my life.. progression.

Though today I am tired and puffy panda-eyed and very, very bitter among other things.. I have to remember that I have put fear in their hearts and am reckonable opponent.. as I have everything to gain.. and nothing to lose. When you have nothing to lose indeed.. you become very dangerous.

Nathan Fillion is diabolical and ten kinds of OSM! :.

Landslide, Part II :.

Article From The Borneo Bulletin

I’d been waiting for the article to come out, and I took a screen cap of the one from the Borneo Bulletin website. The pictures are teeny, but until I can grab the video or pics from my cousin, this will have to do.

The house circled in blue is the leaning house I described last night. The house circled in orange is my Aunt’s house. And between them is the house that sank into the ground.

Apparently the video is rather scary.. like one of those weird ones on those shows of  ‘unbelievable videos.’ You can hear the cracking and creaking going on. It’s really crazy.

Tonight at least, it didn’t rain. But they’re forecasting thunderstorms until Chinese New Year. Yikes. Looks like there won’t be much celebration in that neighbourhood this year.

Thunder, Rain and Sinking Houses.. :.

I’m just back from my Aunt’s house where we were having prayer for the safety of another Aunt’s house. The torrential rain over the last few days caused such instability in the area, that they’ve been evacuated from their house since last night. I saw pictures, it’s freaking scary, I tell you.

Here’s the sitch.. My Aunt and her family own a nice house on a hill, which has this great view that overlooks the river and the sea.. It’s amazing. From the patio on the top of the house, the contrast of the blue of the sky, and the sea, it’s just.. breathtakingly amazing.

But there’s a price to pay for that kind of view. The house was part of a luxury housing development, and each cost a cool million. With slate stone tiles, four stories, a patio roof, and floor to ceiling windows, it was easy to see why the house was worth it.

Now in retrospect, maybe the houses weren’t worth that much.

The police had actually been watching the area for the past week, when one of the houses above my Aunt’s started sinking. Last night, in the middle of a particularly heavy burst of rain, my Aunt and her family were evacuated as the house was now leaning like some grotesque tower of Pisa over it’s retaining wall. From my cousin’s description, they could hear cracks and creaks like some angry ghost was smashing up the inside of the house. Shortly after they left the area, the house next to it unexpectedly sank into the ground as if the earth decided to swallow it up.

I know the description doesn’t do it justice.. But hell, it’s terrifying.. Just looking at the pictures in my cousin’s camera phone made me nervous. The police have cordoned off the entire area in fear that the leaning house will collapse or the continuing rain will cause a landslide.

It’s raining again, and I dread to think what’s going on there right now. I wonder if it’s gonna make it in the news.

And tomorrow is her son’s birthday. Happy 18th Birthday Diddums.  You may be 18, but you’ll always be 5 years old, and giggling in the back of the tricycle as I wheeled you around the house to me. I hope that this doesn’t put a damper on your celebrations.

I should mention that Diddums is a fantastic photographer, and hopefully I will be able to snag some pictures off him of the catastrophe.

Crazy = Genius

“Genius is more often found in a cracked pot than in a whole one.” – E.B White

Damn.. that explains a lot. In a scary way.

“And I’m afraid…” – He said what! No.6 :.

“Evil,” he said.

“What?” I asked. My tone may have been a shade too casual.

“I know that glint in your eye.”

“Hmm..?” My ice cream seems to be the most interesting thing in the world at this point.

“You’re scheming again. And I’m afraid.”

I look up at my friend and give him my most innocent smile.

He recoils back in fear. “That is the sure sign of pure evil.”